"No Children" The Mountain Goats

I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come out with a fail-safe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us
I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late
And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again in my life
I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you dieI hope we both die
I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober
And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way
I am drowning
There is no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die



I don't really hope any of those things it just seems to be running through my head lately. Is it a bad thing that those lyrics sound like something positive to me? Why do I post my thoughts someone is sure to misinterpret them.

Alone in my mind.

"The truth is rarely pure and never simple."

Always Traveling.

I cannot believe the amount of traveling I did over the past weekend. There was no down time just go time.

The Reader

Go see it.

A song that is stuck in my head.

"Throw It All Away"

Try talking to you

While you do, while you do

I swap places with you

Just to see things through

Just sing me the tune

And you'll see

I'll keep it here for you

I'll wait for your cue

You wrote down all the words

Black and white

On a wall

Just keepin' it so

Yeah you know how it goes

No plans for a change, nothing strange

No not today no way

Now sing me the tune

Cash it in and throw it all away

Never needed any of it anyway

So you twist and you turn

Uncomfortable fool, you'll never learn

But you can take a stand

Forget all about the plans California rose

Side one track two

On a record of you

I've even stuck on a groove

That I don't wanna lose

Just play it again, as a friend

It's your favorite worn-in shoes

Now sing me the tune

Cash it in and throw it all away, yeah

Never needed any of it anyway

So you crash, and you burn

Sometimes the road will twist and turn

Some of this, less of that

Forget all about the map California road

Cash it in and throw it all away

Never needed any of it anyway

Cash it in and throw it all away, yeah

Never needed any of it anyway

Cash it in and throw it all away

Never needed any of it anyway

Cash it in and throw it all away

Never needed any of it anyway

Such things may be lost and found in life.

Top 10 things that I have lost in the past 10 years:

Sanity

Virginity

Reality

Innocence

Friends

Anger

Love

Religion

Morals

Traditions

Top 10 things I have gained in the past 10 years:

Love

Disappointment

Standards

Addictions

Friends

Professionalism

Wisdom

Sexuality

Adventures

Money

Those are in no means ordered.

These are in no means complete.

There are tens of years to come and tens of years to change.

Have You Ever

Have you ever shot yourself in the foot with a gun that wasn't even loaded? How do I do this, I try and express myself to a forum of strangers and the one person I am talking about misinterprets everything I say. Why is it so hard to love and communicate?

Many miles to go with no rest in sight.